Valaki segítene lefordítani? (Angol)

Szóval, eddig azt hittem tudok angolul, de ezek szerint annyira nem. Aki tud segítsen lécci (ne google fordítóval, az nekem is megy)

Szöveg:

Using the sword was something that I initially pushed for. In a sense, you could say I spurred this on.

But still...

What is this heavy sensation in the pit of my stomach?

It may sounds selfish, but leave. I dont care to breath the same air as you. Go. There is nothing for you here. Plus, I've suddenly become rather busy. So busy that I've no time to empathize with your decisions.