Mi lenne szánalmasabb, ez a szöveg, vagy ha nem tudatnám vele azt, amit érzek?

I was thinking about my life. I didn't tell you the truth, because it's so unthinkable. I try to explain, maybe scary or you think it's a lie, or just another pathetic attempt.

In the life, always the strongest one gets ahead. This truth makes me sad, because I don’t want to hurt anybody. I don’t see the reason of the life, but for the inexplicable reason (to which I have not received an answer so far), I want a family too. My expectations are high (I can't and I don't want to change that), this is the first reason, why I don’t had many dates with girls. When I got to the point of asking a girl for a date, I always imagine what a mother would be She. This narrows the circle enough. Besides the conscious facts, there is sometimes another feeling, a feeling I don't know the origin of, and what I don't know....you know me. The reality justifies the theory of evolution, that's why I never had anyone.