Mi lenne szánalmasabb, ez a szöveg, vagy ha nem tudatnám vele azt, amit érzek?

Átírtam még szánalmasabbra:

I was thinking about my life. I wrote this yesterday, but I thought maybe I went crazy, it's a better idea to show you the next day. So if you read it, I still think so.

I didn't tell you the truth, because it's so unthinkable. I try to explain, maybe scary or you think it's a lie, or just another attempt. Probably pathetic to most people, but this is what I honestly feel.

In the life, always the strongest one gets ahead. This truth makes me sad, because I don’t want to hurt anybody. I don’t see the reason of the life, but for the inexplicable reason (to which I have not received an answer so far), I want a family too. When I got to the point of asking a girl for a date, I always imagine what a mother would be She. This narrows the circle enough. Besides the conscious facts, there is sometimes another feeling, a feeling I don't know the origin of, and what I don't know....you know me. The reality justifies the theory of evolution, that's why I never had anyone. The honesty is not effective in life.